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|3.11 18:13||Tomorrow I'm heading into an office building for the first time since I left my office at Veritas for the final time exactly 79 weeks ago. That's an ASTOUNDING amount of time when I think about it - so many of you weren't even Facebook friends with me 79 weeks ago and may only know me as this unemployed guy. I have repeatedly said how weird it is that as long as I tried to live my life NOT defining myself by my job, I sure seemed to have spent much of the past year defining myself by my lack of employment...but none of that is why I'm here tonight. I've been wanting to write this status for a long effin' time, and finally it's my chance. Tonight I want to extend my thanks and gratitude to all of you for sticking with me until this moment...and beyond!|
It's hard to encapsulate in a Facebook status just how lucky and fortunate I feel and how grateful I am to so, so many of you for your untiring support, unflagging belief in me and unconditional love even at my lowest points. You have all kept me going and keep me wanting to never disappoint you. You have listened when I've needed to talk, rant, babble and occasionally be incoherent, but you still listened and you kept listening.
Thanks to my regular party hosts for keeping me social - well, as social as a serial wallflower can be, but always giving me the chance. Gothess is #1 on my list - Mari was one of the first people to reach out and tell me it'd get better and that meant so much more to me than I'd ever know, especially as month after month I'd show up and say something along the lines of "and I hope this is THE LAST month" and inevitably it wouldn't be, but I was always invited back.
Thanks to Dark Energy, Electric Feel, Freak of the Week, Hipshaker, Hot Pants, the 90s Preservation Society, Worldwide Discotheque, Body Heat, Dogg Pound, GRIND, Moonlight Affair, The Assortment, Wizard Haus, Fractal Geometry, Tourniquet, Transmission and I'm sure I've forgotten a dozen other regular dance/music nights for giving me a place to hang out, enjoy beverages and occasionally sway in place.
Thanks to Kitty Cat Klub for the "regular" status and for hosting the coolest local artists. Thanks to the countless number of cool local artists at KCK and dozens of other spots for filling my Instagram feed. Thanks to Kitty Cat Klub, the Varsity, the Eagles, the Hexagon, Memory Lanes, Palmer's, Acadia, Part Wolf and occasionally the Turf Club for being within walking distance.
Thanks to Joel and the Infernal Singalong Machine for enduring my rapidly deteriorating karaoke skills on a regular basis and thanks to my all karaoke pals for the same.
Thanks to Republic for letting Christian Fritz host a vinyl happy hour every Sunday night (although he only shows up for, like, half of them) and giving me a reason to walk there and then walk off beers I've never tried before walking back. Thanks also to Christian for letting me DJ as his guest as well as alongside him at Bryant-Lake Bowl and Bev's Wine Bar.
THANK YOU KFAI. Volunteering at KFAI and regularly recording programs with Mason on Cruise Control and then on my own with the Dollar Bin has been the most important "routine" activity to keep me sane and alive when the routine of applying and interviewing for jobs I wasn't getting was attempting to kill me. I'm beyond grateful for the chance to take board certification to be an on-air host and to be live on the air sharing music for (now up to) 66 hours on my own, and for many more accompanying other folks. Thanks to DJ SLT for the most chances to figure out my on-air persona. Thanks to Izzy, Simon, Eric, Sean, another Sean and Mason for letting me guest host their programs, too. Thanks to Mason and Barb for basically extending me an open invite to remain a small part of the AM Drive universe. Thanks to all the people whose names I may not even remember for checking in on me and asking how the job search was going, even when I had the same answer over and over. Thanks to all the new friends I've made thanks to KFAI and I hope I can continue to help keep it going. I'll definitely be able to give more and larger pledges in the future! And if YOU want to put together an on-air hour show and need an engineer, we'll figure out some studio time and get it made - let me know!
This is a little repetitive but thank you one more time, Mason. You've always encouraged me and thrown me the right compliment at the right time. You're constantly making the coolest stuff happen and I'm always happy when I get to assist.
Thanks to all my friends who are DJs, some of whom have been tricked into thinking I'm a fellow DJ. Thanks especially to my guncle Jamez Apollolypstic for supporting me and also giving me multiple chances to listen. And thanks to KRSM!
Allison, thanks for all the times you checked in even as I got worse and worse about responding on time... and thanks for all the times you helped me continue to feel useful when it was too easy to feel useless. I wish some of those errands hadn't had to happen but I'm glad I could come through. It feels like so long ago but hanging your installation with Steve at the coffee shop was one of the first times I felt like my new sudden availability was meant for a reason and that was the first of several great times we had that meant a whole lot to me.
Kat, thanks for being - well, not my WHOLE world, but probably a way bigger part of it than I'm sure you're sometimes comfortable with, but even after you've endured me at my worst you've STILL kept in touch, checked in and cared. No words are sufficient, really, but fortunately we've got a zillion of them archived in Messenger forever. I know there'll be more soon. Thanks for the in-person hangs for my last week of funemployment.
LaLa, thanks for meeting me at the 19 more times than I ever knew I'd have time for. Thanks for the weekends with your family. Most importantly, thanks for letting me stay over while you repeatedly played the same song four times in a row.
If I tried to continue to list individual friends, I would be very blessed for it would go on into the hundreds but that might not make YOU feel very blessed for having to scan through all of it - especially when you're looking for YOUR name and you end up being the inevitable person I forget to include while totally intending to. So just know that your name is in my heart even as my brain totally drops the ball, but also, I'm not gonna subject any of us to that list. Just click on the "Friends" link in my profile to get the gist.
But I do want to single out the Super Friends for basically being my inner circle and thank them for being the first folks to cajole me into not staying home way back when I knew I was being laid off. We may not (currently) have Triviasco! but we will have each other forever. I'll try to line up some days off for a summer tubing trip or two.
Oh! Definitely thanks to Kirk and the Twin Lake bunch also for not one but TWO summers' worth of good times in the hidden lake. I will DEFINITELY pack the trunks and towel to visit again after work this summer!
I got lots of big plans for the future - very important to me, I plan to try to repay all of you for your kindness, buying drinks and dinners for everybody who ever got me one, catching up on offering my own support when my emotional energy level didn't allow me to properly be there in the past, trying to anticipate who needs what from me without them even having to ask, and generally doing better and better. Of course, now that I'll never leave my house again (heh)... you may have to wait a few weeks before you can cash in as I slowly learn how much I can do outside of the work schedule. But definitely grab a giant hug from me next time you see me, even if I look like I'm deathly afraid of you - ESPECIALLY if I look like I'm deathly afraid of you, probably.
"Late Night CRZ" has retired - for now. "Work Schedule CRZ" will try to be out there and more fun as soon as I can. At the very least, he should be able to afford the cover.
I will always love you all.