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15.5.15 14:50 
Listened to GusGus - This is what you get when you mess with love
15.5.15 14:43 
Listened to GusGus - Mexico
15.5.15 14:37 
Listened to GusGus - This is not the first time
15.5.15 14:31 
Listened to GusGus - God Application
15.5.15 14:25 
Listened to GusGus - Airwaves
15.5.15 14:20 
Listened to GusGus - Crossfade
15.5.15 14:14 
Listened to GusGus - Sustain
15.5.15 14:09 
Listened to GusGus - Another Life
15.5.15 14:04 
Listened to GusGus - Obnoxiously Sexual
15.5.15 12:13 
Listened to Powertools Mixshow - Episode 2-5-15
15.5.15 12:11 
TGIC
15.5.15 12:10 
Listened to L’Tric - This Feeling
15.5.15 11:55 
Adult Swim Upfront News (from a week ago)
15.5.15 10:50 
YOGURT OF THE DAY: STRAWBERRY (FRUIT ON THE BOTTOM) #yogurtoftheday
15.5.15 09:58 
 Symantec (Roseville, MN)
15.5.15 09:58 
Listened to The Justified Ancients of Mu Mu - Next
15.5.15 09:50 
Listened to The The - Infected
15.5.15 09:45 
Listened to Leonard Nimoy - Highly Illogical
15.5.15 09:43 
Listened to Duran Duran - Falling Down (Single Edit)
14.5.15 20:31 Can of Diet Dr Pepper Cherry
14.5.15 19:19 
 Symantec (Roseville, MN) (Building 2)
14.5.15 19:18 
 Catching up (left phone at home - who DOES that?) - Symantec (Roseville, MN)
14.5.15 19:11 
Listened to UNKLE - unkle vs. perverts - the march of the general
14.5.15 19:09 
Listened to 4 Non Blondes - Pleasantly Blue
14.5.15 19:06 
Listened to Yambú - Vecindad
14.5.15 15:10 
@FishCenterLive I can't believe what I just heard
14.5.15 15:00 
SYMC closing quote: 25.90 ▲0.58 (Range: 25.54 - 25.92)
14.5.15 14:48 
Listened to Wavves - Afraid of Heights
14.5.15 13:36 
Coffee
14.5.15 12:42 
@grumpymartian There's a Portland Kraftwerk show?! (Would you like to come to the Minneapolis one? May need a date)
14.5.15 12:29 
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Listened to Kevin Marshall's Spotify playlist "IT'S F***ING SUMMER"
14.5.15 12:24 @kimberrussell Thanks ladyg!
14.5.15 12:02 FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE
14.5.15 12:00 
OK, let's get this over with - if you don't know me on Facebook or in case you missed it, I posted about my divorce
https://www.facebook.com/CRZed/posts/10153320268924791
14.5.15 11:41 
RT @WeAreNovation: http://MoroderNova.com http://pic.twitter.com/3LjwVMnG5o
14.5.15 11:27 
YOGURT OF THE DAY: BLUEBERRY (FRUIT ON THE BOTTOM) #yogurtoftheday
14.5.15 10:43 
Listened to Depeche Mode - Useless (The Kruger + Dorfmeister Sessionâ„¢)
14.5.15 10:33 
Listened to Creed - Who's Got My Back?
13.5.15 22:22 2015 Conference Finals - Schedule and Predictions
13.5.15 17:13 
U.S. Post Office (Minneapolis, MN)
13.5.15 17:10 
Listened to Sharon Redd - Can You Handle It
13.5.15 17:06 
Listened to Jimmy Ruffin - What Becomes Of A Brocken Hearted
13.5.15 17:03 
Listened to Stone Temple Pilots - Meatplow
13.5.15 15:00 
SYMC closing quote: 25.32 ▲0.18 (Range: 25.08 - 25.38)
13.5.15 14:07 
 Symantec (Roseville, MN)
13.5.15 09:31 
Coffee
13.5.15 09:10 
 Symantec (Roseville, MN) (Building 2)
13.5.15 09:08 
Listened to Lindstrøm & Prins Thomas - Nummer Fire To
12.5.15 22:00 
Changed status to "Separated"
12.5.15 22:00 
Short version: Last night, I went to my lawyer's office and he and I signed the divorce papers already signed by Kim and her lawyer; if I understand the process correctly, all we need now is one more signature from a judge.

Longer version:


We'd just watched an episode of "Check It Out!" and I was just about to head upstairs to finish the pre-reading I'd been putting off all weekend for the training I was taking the next morning when Kim said she needed to talk to me. It was around 00:15 the morning of September 22, 2014 when I learned that she wanted a separation. I pressed her on if she really meant separation or something more permanent and she admitted that she really didn't mean separation.

It's kind of hard to describe how the past - good lord, almost EIGHT months have been, so let me avoid that completely and instead tell you about the past 10 years and 351 days leading up to that conversation. There wasn't a person alive or dead, on this planet or any other, who I loved more than this woman and there was never a time when I didn't want to be her husband. (Even now, she's probably still in the top 5.) And I think even now I would still prefer I were her husband...but not if me being her husband makes her unhappy. And I have been really clueless and oblivious and blind to how unhappy she must have been because I never saw it coming and I was probably bragging vainly about my perfect marriage right up until that moment. I have failed her and it's a crushing, devastating disappointment.

It's been really hard to be in this in-between limbo as the lawyers have been busy...or not...deciding the best way to separate us in all the other ways while we tried to settle on the logistical part of it. We decided early on not to Facebook this situation, so I've had to be coy and just not mention her for a long time and let you wonder (or, more likely, not even notice) why she wasn't appearing in my statuses - and later, not even in my friends list. She changed her status from "Married" to "Hidden" while mine was automagically changed from "Married to..." to "Married" without a name. I kept wearing my ring because I couldn't bring myself to remove it. (I took it off last night.)

I tell you all this because if I've seemed more eccentric than usual, or more present on Facebook than usual, or I've said something that didn't really even seem to make sense...I'm hoping this explains it a bit and I hope you can forgive me for not telling you the whole truth back then.

For those of you I've seen in person, a lot of whom DID know and showed me nothing but love and understanding, a couple of whom never let on that they knew even though they did, asking me if I wanted to talk when I spent too much time silent, offering me hugs I desperately needed but wouldn't request, and on and on - I won't say "you have no idea how that helped me" because you're smart and beautiful and you probably have a pretty good idea about it. I have no way to repay your kindness and friendship to me but I'm going to spend a lot of the future trying to find ways. You guys are awesome. I love you all.

For those folks in her family and in mine who may be learning about this for the first time - I'm sorry that this is the way you found out. For the Stitzels, know that I still think of you all as family even though I probably won't see most of you from now on - except maybe here on Facebook.

For MY family who didn't already know...you know I'll tell you all about it next time we're in the same place... so long as the beer holds out. ;-)

Back to the locals: if you ever want to come sit on the porch or you're into punishing yourself by watching WWE Network and would like to do that, or you like playing the LIFE board game from the 1960s or you'd be interested in just (hopefully really soon now!) having me play you some of my records, just let me know you'd like to come over. We can have sugary pop or something much stronger. If you don't want to come here, I'm happy to come to you - maybe you need a trivia ringer (or, more likely, a trivia leech-of-your-talent-and-brains) or you like a band nobody else likes and need a +1 or you just have an empty chair - please think of me if everybody else has said no.

To my friends not in Minnesota: I'll try to swing by and visit you soon and we can talk more about anything then. (Granted, it'll take me a little longer to get to some of you than others.) Also, I have two really uncomfortable couches if you ever decide you need to make a Mall of America trip or something.

I'm hoping some of you don't need to unfriend me now, but I know that sometimes that has to happen. See you around. (I DO hope to see you again.)

You can "Like" this and I'll know you don't necessarily like it. *I* don't really like it. But I'll know you read it so I won't have to ask you next time I see you. I AM glad that it's practically official and just about all of the uncertainty is out of the way. Well..."glad" maybe isn't the right word - more like "relieved." I'm hoping this'll make me a little less of a space cadet at work and in "real life" - but no guarantees...

Oh and also, if I can't get a couple hundred likes from THIS...hell, I don't know WHAT to post here. We'll find out later, I guess; I sense a lot of oversharing coming soon. (Yes, what I have been doing on here before didn't even come CLOSE. I'll have you VERY tired of me VERY soon, I'm sure.)

Guys, things could be so much worse. You and I are still alive and we can still be thankful for that. (If one of us should turn out not to be alive...um, wow. Sorry about THAT, too. But you understand if I hope it's you?) Oops, overstayed my welcome. I KNEW I should have kept it under 1000 words.

That's all for now

BYE
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